your attention please

"the library will close in 30 minutes. thank you."

ah nothing like the sound of the library security man's voice reminding you that in half an hour you will no longer be allowed to do work in the lurrrrvely environment that is stauffer. instead, your computer will be shut down, any unsaved work lost, and you will be expected to shuffle out those side doors and trudge home in -14 (spring?!) weather.

lately i've been ragged upon a lot, mostly for my not so discrete love for biology and the material that we're learning (really, sex IS good for you... so we are told). it's at times like these where you're nearing 2am and your lab is semi-hastily-put together and your midterm material for the next day has not been touched since the last exam ... that i need to be reminded of why i love what i'm doing. and why i'm doing what i'm doing.

yeah.. when you feel like you're going to die from having to do all this junk. that really, in 15 years it's not going to matter whether or not sharks have jaws that are attached to the craniums or not, or whether your psyc study only involved undergraduate students from queen's university and in no way is that a big enough sample base to generalize your findings to the general population. in 15 years these late nights "dying" at stauffer with your brothers and sisters will be nothing but fond memories as you see in retrospect how much they've helped shape the person you will have become. that despite how small and trivial our day to day actions seem and you'd rather be in Africa ministering or in China spreading the love of Christ, that your perseverance and patience and faith NOW are things that honour our Lord, and in return you will be blessed abundantly.

it's been a very long three days. full of worldy silly things that take up time and energy and resources away from the things that should matter.
well actually in that sense, it's been a very long 6 months...

but He pulled out the big guns on me yesterday. the Lord of the universe has pulled out the big guns. and to moment, even though it is fleeting.. right now.. it's a totally different world.

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"your attention please, the library will close in 15 minutes. all must exit the building by 2 o'clock"

this is my sign to pack up as the computers will be shutting off soon.

tonight ... i'm coming home running.

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