(old)friends

"you know how they say university is the setting in which you meet the people with whom you'll be friends for the rest of your life. i certainly hope that this isn't one of those pseudo-statistics/cliches that get flung around. and even if so ... no, it can't be. we'll prove them wrong.

sitting in the barren basement of the library with stacks of notes around you isn't supposed to elicit this type of emotion.
maybe its the piano music i stole from a friend.
but either way, my thoughts have drifted away from those of biology and psychology and matters of the brain to the matters of the heart that reside deep inside.

tomorrow is grad night.
and here i sit with that feeling you get in your throat just before you break down in tears."

***

well that was my unfinished post from 3 days ago.
grad night has come and gone, and so have my momentary lapses into reality.
it may seem silly, to suppress and hide, maybe like climbing up onto the next rung of the ladder with each day you're in denial... ultimately setting yourself up for the big fall? but im not ready to let go yet.

***

there are so many of you.
you've taken me so high, above and beyond any ladder i could climb myself or had imagined coming into this.

mmm human emotions. this isn't the time nor place for me to fully express what i want to say, what i feel. so.
until next time, or i finally pull myself together:
our {chinese}lodge(ladies)(love) family portrait.